Takk...

I think I have found my Album of the year. It's so great, I almost don't want it to end. Because when the music ends... it's like those nights when I would get back to my apartment, the weather was nice outside, I wanted the door to be open so bad...but I'd have to close myself off from everything. Falling asleep with the neighbors going at it and both of my phones next to my pillow.

(sometimes I didn't care that I was in a bad neighborhood, I gave them the middle finger and left a window or door open.)

What da ****?

This is definitely an interesting experiment thus far. Yesterday was my first full day without falling asleep outside of my schedule. It's like I'm an addict getting off a drug...true, not nearly as severe but I would guess that it is similar. So many thoughts, almost all being positive about the way I look at life. Of course, most of these thoughts are small "visions" of what life could be like if I could keep this structure up. For example...the thought, "You mean there is life after waking up and before work?" "You mean, I actually have time for 30 minutes for politics, an hour and half for web work, 1 hour for studying and 30 minutes of guitar playing?" Which in a way doesn't seem like much when put down like that, but wow, it is much more time than I was putting into these things before. What in the **** was I doing before?

13 hours of fun

Welp, I'm trying to structure my days here on planet Earth. When I realized I have some 30+ hours of time in which I don't have to be somewhere or don't have to be on my way somewhere I felt like something was wrong. 30+ hours?? Wow, what DO I DO with my time?

So the first goal is getting my sleep time into a pattern. I noticed that I was waking up at various times over the course of a whole week to accommodate the different things I was doing at different times. I figure I'm not being very efficient when I do sleep, because I know when I'm awake, it is hard to stay that way. As of now, I'm scheduled to hit the sack at 11:30 and wake up at 6:30. 7 hours of sleep and a rough morning if I don't have anything mandatory to do for a few hours. I think this will be great once I get used to it (I hope I get used to it).

Sometimes I am so certain I will die of cancer.

Did it have to linger?

You know, it is funny how a dream can really mess with you. Not like this is a surprise. We all know the effect a dream can have on us. They make us feel things that we wouldn't normally feel.

An interesting thought just passed through my mind. Thinking that dreams make us feel things that we wouldn't normally feel, how often do we have dreams that further provoke feelings that we already have? I mean, my dream last night created an emotion that I would like to have, but simply don't have(except for right now). I've had dreams that create emotions that I would be extremely embarrassed to have in normal conscious awareness.

On the other side, there are people and situations I hardly ever have dreams about. I wonder why. Normally you dream about something if it is on your mind a lot. For example (embarrassing moment): I used to want to have a dream about meeting Bjork so bad. I never did though. The closest I ever got to having Bjork in a dream was when I dreamed I was walking to my car after watching a movie she was in (I didn't even see the movie in my dream).

Adding certain emotions to certain people or situations could be very painful. Having a dream about Bjork back then would have pushed me way into the way too obsessed area of my old slight obsession.

Anyways...

Myspace.com sucks II

Hmmm...nothing to say. Oh yea, Myspace.com sucks. How did this site ever become popular?

Maybe I'm just "hating" on it right now because the CSS doesn't make perfect sense to me and I feel like I shouldn't be having a problem with it. DOH!

Post #100 (V-Day)

Good luck fellas...

On & On

Just gotta say "On & On" by Erykah Badu is a such great song. Beautiful voice, great lyrics, great laid-back beat (dig the intro beats), nice bass line, and the guitars are smooth.

"The man that knows something knows that he knows nothing at all"

Party foul

I have this really bad urge to say that I did not watch the Super Bowl today. Obviously I care about that or I wouldn't be saying anything about it. I intentionally grounded the ball because I didn't want to watch it (even though there was a significant urge to do so). I sat back and wondered if I wanted to watch because I have gotten in a habit of watching the Super Bowl. I wondered if it was because I didn't want any one to come up to me and ask if I watched it and then say, "Awww!! You missed it! I can't believe you didn't watch it! You missed a good one!" I think it is both.

I decided to opt out and visit the Menil. Not totally for self pleasure but because I had to for a class...not saying I didn't pick the time of departure somewhat intentionally. I think I had a good weekend.

Myspace.com sucks

What can I say?? Myspace.com sucks. There, now it's written down as well. It is slow and my "personal" web space is "disabled for special maintenance." What? Something new seriously needs to come along and fill the tiny little niche that myspace.com has filled.