Awgh 23

It is weird now. Things are becoming hollow. I don't feel like I've missed my chance or that I've done something horribly wrong to make all of this happen to me. I don't feel like I'm living in some dream.

I feel bad that I see how much I didn't know her. I see how little time she had. I gave her a hard time for things I really should not have.

There are still many things that I feel could have been different, I pleaded so often...but it seems so late to worry about these things now. I feel frustrated about how much I didn't know.