In my FIST

Wow, what a largely unproductive night. The World Baseball Classic caught my attention and I actually thought about staying up until 1 so I could watch a few innings of Taipei vs Korea. I already know how the game goes up until the 7th inning, so...I think I'll skip out on that one. Besides, the one I really want to see doesn't come on until 3:30. So, my brother and I sat around discussing why college basketball is on ESPN2 instead of the WBC...and then why MLB.TV would black out the games if we decided to purchase them thru that same venue. All the while channel surfing...watching "Secreto Houston", "Family Guy", a Gallery Furniture commercial, and "Sports Center".

So, sometimes taking up smoking is kind of appealing..yea, you heard that right, smoking. Not really tho. Smoking is a wretched habit with a wretched smell. Tho, fresh cut smoke from a cigarette sadly reminds me of good times out on the Pavilion lawn listening to a little Dave. Lieutenant Dan, she tasted like cigarettes.

But you know, there is an attraction to smoking. I find it kinda quirky when somebody says, "I'm going out for a cigarette break." I like quirky things (for the most part, and can't think of anything quirky that I don't like at this moment). It is just...kinda...do I dare say it? Cool, ok? It still has that old school Hollywood coolness to it. You don't get that when they ask me "Where are you going", and I reply, "I'm going out for a walk break." A walk break? It's almost like there is no point to it...not like when a person smokes a cigarette. Hitting that last little bit of it, cheeks pulled in, eyes slanted. I would be such a cool smoker too ya know. I would hold a cigarette like I'm smoking something else and I would look off into the distance pondering what life means. If somebody interrupted me while in my focused day dream, I reply with the utmost confidence, my voice steady and deep, and say, nothing. I would slowly turn to them and look them in the eye...and they would wonder if my look was that of disgust (for breaking my meditation) or that of genuine interest in their disrespectful interruption.

But...smoking isn't cool because it's a waste, and my wasted admiration of it is only of its facade. What kind of a weirdo starts smoking because they think it will make them cool? All smokers I would assume.