emTheory

I like breaking my body. I like the pain. I like seeing it heal. I like wondering if the scar will be permanent. I like thinking that the scar will be permanent.

In the same, I've started enjoying the mental healing. I like it when a new understanding comes about and trickles down thru all my memories...justifying my actions, or feeling regret because I felt no regret at the time.

Soon...it is always soon, like the end of the world is always in "our" time.